I feel so desperate being in late-20s

Everyday is another chapter in the survival mode for me, when was the last time that I could feel truly joyful with my existence?

Please don’t get me wrong, we are living in the most flourishing era of technology and healthcare. We survived the greatest pandemic and tentatively a global dispute that could sweep a continent in just a blink of an eye. I feel so grateful for being alive and try to make the best out of it… in the righteous way possible?

Ongoing validation seeking in career, social status and community norms makes me feel so sick. I have to be courteous about myself but in the meantime whenever i defense for myself I feel guilty for it. Life is so hard and complex yet I’m still trying to find a compromising way to just ‘be’ and survive this phase until I got up and turned 40 in my own asset somewhere and a corgi.

If a man could aim for mars and succeeded in landing on once, I guess we all still have a chance to live a life that we could have imagined.

Until then, I’ll try not to landed somewhere else and settled for it just yet